| Wow, it's been five months since I updated. In that time, the year changed from 2004 to 2005, and my life changed in more ways than I thought possible.
High school is now a memory of the past. A blur in my life. Four years seems like an eternity when it begins, yet seems like a day when it ends. Hours upon hours spent studying, stressing, doing homework, laughing, crying, smiling, getting angry, getting excited, making memories, and just living. For every bad memory, there are 3 good ones. I now understand the truth behind the saying that the best years of your life are spent in high school. I wouldn't trade a thing for the memories I've made through the years. And I can honestly say I have no regrets, because if I had done anything differently, I wouldn't be the person I am today. One little thing done differently would've changed everything: the experience, the memory, my life. The friends I've made truly are a blessing straight from Heaven. I always have this fear of making the wrong friends. Getting to know people that I later find I don't want to be associated with. I really lucked out in high school. I've never found such a wonderful group of people who understand me. People who see my flaws but love me anyway. People who stick by me no matter what kind of day I'm having or what kind of mess I've gotten myself into to. People who give me a shoulder to cry on when I need one. People who give me a hug when I'm down to make me feel better or give me a hug just to remind me that they care. You guys really are irreplaceable, and I can't tell you how much I'm going to miss you. College just won't be the same without ya'll, no matter how many new people I meet or how many new friends I make. I know we're all promising to stay in touch right now, and I know that it's still really difficult for us to see the time when all of this is really over, so I just want ya'll to know that no matter what happens, even if we lose touch and go our separate ways without another thought about each other, please know that I will cherish every memory and that each and every one of you will have a place in my heart forever. I love you guys and I thank ya'll for everything.
As high school officially comes to a close in a few days, other chapters of my life are coming to a close as well. As I face turning 18 this coming fall, my childhood comes to an abrupt end. With its end comes new responsibilities, new adventures, and new people. College is something that I'm really excited about but really scared about at the same time. All of these "what ifs" plague my mind. Looking back, I wonder if it was like this when I was starting high school. I'm sure it probably was, but I honestly can't remember. I wonder if I'm going to look back on this time in four years when I'm graduating college and wonder the same thing about my feelings entering college. Will I miss the people I meet in college as much as I'm going to miss the ones from high school? Will I be in a relationship? Will I be engaged? Or will I be single? What kind of things am I going to be scared of four years from now? Will I be graduating with a degree in what I plan on majoring in right now, or will I have majored in something completely different? So many questions, so much uncertainty. But that's what makes life so great. That's why we get up every day...to see how our life will unfold that day, what kind of experiences we will have, what kind of people we will meet. Life would be boring if we knew what to expect when we woke up every day, or what our future would be like. Even though I was uncertain about high school and how my life would unfold in those four years, I can honestly say that I think everything turned out perfectly. The moments weren't always perfect, the memories weren't always perfect, and the people most certainly weren't always perfect (especially not me), but everything turned out exactly like it was supposed to. And that's what makes it perfect. |
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